LIFE AND MEMORIES....

Meluat aku...

2009-10-19T06:49:00.000-07:00

Beberapa pangillan yang tak di duga menganggu fikiran aku hari ni.Dari pagi mood aku tak begitu baik,supervisors pulak buat silap habis semua kena hari ni.Pangillan dari dato membuat aku tertanya kenapa tiba-tiba aku nak di libatkan di dalam kancah politik hantu-hantu yang telah merosakkan imej club itu..Aku bukan lagi staff di Lake Club jadi kenapa masih mahu menganggu ketenangan aku di sini.Dato memberitahu aku tentang rancangan pihak yang satu lagi untuk memanggil aku menjadi saksi setelah menerima satu surat saman.

Sejak aku meninggalkan club aku tak mahu tahu lagi segala hal yang terjadi di sana walaupun seringkali teman-teman menalipon menceritakan itu dan ini.Aku hanya sekadar mendengar.untuk lebih-lebih bertanya tidak sekali-kali aku lakukan.Aku tak mahu tahu dan aku tak mahu orang menganggu aku juga.Tapi pangillan dari dato memberitahuku tentang perancangan committe member memanggil aku sebagai saksi kononnya atas kesalahan sesorang (setelah menerima surat saman dari member tersebut) membuat aku geram.Pertama kerana tak pasal-pasal nama aku di sabitkan dan kedua kerana kejadian yang di katakan terjadi adalah setelah aku meninggalkan kelab tersebut jika ia benar-benar terjadi bukan sewaktu aku masih bekerja di sana.Entah betul-entah tidak aku lansung tak mengetahui perihal kejadian tersebut.

Benci dengan politik mereka dan memandangkan ini adalah court case maka aku menelefon mr manjet,former president dan juga lawyer terkenal.Of course knowing mr manjet,apa-apa tentang aku dia amat prihatin kerana dia seperti seorang ayah kepadaku.Aku meminta pendapatnya pagi tadi dan dia telah memberi jaminan serta menyuruh aku memberitahu mereka yang sedang bercadang memanggil aku sebagai saksi dalam kes ini nanti supaya berurusan dgn dia dahulu."Just say that i'll be your lawyer and see whether they want to proceed with their plan with me defending you..don't worry dear i'll defend you at no charge,all this people need to be taught a lesson" he told me this morning.sememangnya seandainya dengan dia,tiada orang akan berani membuat sebarang urusan tak menentu coz he's really a no nonsense man,ini cukup terbukti sewaktu dia menjadi president club dahulu.

Aku merasa lega sedikit setelah mendapat nasihat dari mr manjet dan sekarang menanti waktu bila aku akan menerima pangillan dari present president sipatrick tu dan aku dah tahu macammana nak jawab walaupun jika dia meggunakan lawyer mereka menalipon aku... Benci betul aku dengan dia orang ni dan dah muak dengan politik mereka.Kesian dato tak pasal-pasal niat baik dia di salah ertikan hanya kerana orang gila kuasa....

Hampir 2 bulan dah...

2009-10-07T04:51:00.000-07:00

Lagi 3 hari genap 2 bulan aku berada di BGRC.Banyak juga yang telah aku siapkan selama aku berada di sini.Sekarang masuk Blok ke4 aku nak siapkan untuk jualan.Last block together with the VIP suite rooms.So far the owner had personally told me that they are very happy with my performance.Infact the contractors are told to follow my instructions now,whatever that i say they need to follow...sound macam besar kepala aje tapi tidak ..is merely because i had managed to overcome the all the problems arise during setting up the 4 new block and i managed to meet the datelines despite all the problems we encountered.So far i've never let them down yet and my department is the only department with very low turn over of staff although we are the biggest department with the most staff and our nature of work is the hardest compare to the rest.

Eversince i came in my Resident Manager has totally left the department under my custody coz he has the confidence in me unlike other department where he still has to monitor the progress....perhap because the heads are still young although they're are hard working.
He told me one day over dinner that he felt the burden had been taken away from his shoulder since my presence there.Almost all my request for the department is being entertained coz he knows me well enough that i would not abuse the authority that i have.I could sensed that some of my colleague do envy me but i couldn't be bothered.They got no basis to do so,even the owners had justified the positive comments about me infront of them and had also entertained to all my request which to them are no nonsence.

No matter what people think or my colleague thought of me,i must say that it is really not easy to handle the department here.I had a staff strength of 65 pax at the moment which i had to increase to 110 pax base on 80% occupancy rate soon.It is not easy to get that many staff nowadays as Malaysian today are damn choosy over the type of work the do even if the have no qualifications.i have to carefully plan my resources in accomplishing the organisation's goal.The resort area is very wide consist of 7 blocks with is widely spread on a 15 acres land.Latest we also have to take over 60% of the water park area which consist of seminar rooms.ballroom,kopitiam,tin mines and other F&B outlets there.The water park is about 300 meters away from the resort. Now i have another baby to take care.

Only about 10% of the staff had experience while the balance are totally fresh and i really need to guide them from scratch.Lots of training and motivation needs to be given daily in order to make them stay. Wrong approach will leads to resignations which is very dangerous to the department as the scope of work is not that easy and real time consuming to train new staff especially when it comes to room sections.

On top of that i have another sections which not least important which takes care of all the linens in the resort.Proper planning of collecting dirty linens and delivery of clean linens has to be in place and on time as we are using outside contractor for washing the linens.At one time busy period an average of 10,000 pcs of room linen is being used and needs to be clean to support the next and following day operation.Poor coordinations of the collection and delivery time will jeopardize the following day operation as we will be running short of linen although we had almost 4pars of linen stock.i really can afford to mislook into this sections no matter how busy i am.

Public area is another section which has to move fast and efficiently especially when we are running back to back in all the function rooms and F7B outlets.We had experience having about 5000 pax of functions all over at one time and i only have one asst at the moment to assist in this area.Nevertheless my staff have always been very helpful and hardworking.Alhamdullillah....they had always been with me.

Well...since i had committed myself to this resort i'll deliver my best,just that i don't have that much time too update my blog like those day.Towards end of the day,i've already exhausted normally.Got the chance to update today coz i have to standby incase the owners need to call us for a meeting later for their updates.......

Hari Raya dan aku yang kena kerja....

2009-09-23T21:14:00.000-07:00

Jealous betul aku bila kawan-kawan talipon cerita program dia orang pegi jalan and beraya sana-sani.Ctm paling pandai buat aku jealous...tapi nak buat macam mana i've committed myself to this place so kena kotakan janji.Hujung bulan November baru balik KL rasanya so i'll spent my time pegi shopping sana sini nanti.Kat Kuantan eventhough banyak juga mallnya tapi tak sehidup shopping mall di KL.Macamlah banyak sangat benda yang nak di beli..paling-paling beli perfume for me and teddy comel for my cucu...

Hidup kat sini,keje,keje dan keje sampai malam,in between naik bilik pegi solat.Malas sangat nak pegi town so gaji mmg jimat sesangat-sangat.makan minum semua kat hotel,tak larat nak telan pun gasak aje,tak payah guna duit.Gaji last month belum dapat bank in.gaji bulan ni dah nak keluar pulak,bestnya.Aku akan pegi shopping,shopping and shopping seminggu kalau dapat leavelah...berangan lagi.

Weekend ni bos bagi cuti dua hari tapi hubby and anak-anak by then dah balik KL pasal dia ada class saturday and sunday jadi aku ingat nak simpan dulu cuti saturday tu.Sunday balik umah mak beraya dgn adik beradik and monday back to work so that i boleh ambil cuti panjang end of october nanti...Masa tu pun mgkn semua block aku dah siap set up janji tak payah nak risau-risau lagi.Sekarang pun tgh pening nak cari sorang assistant lagi.Mati oooh keje sini kalau terus tak cukup assistant,planning kalau tersilap sikit habis screw up sema...better don't take the risk!

Anyway hari owner datang,every thursday dia kan datang melawat and have progress meeting kat sini so kena standby kejap lagi for inspection and resort tour lepas tu baru boleh lepak-lepak kalau nak....

Kerja oh kerja...

Does life really begins at 40?

2009-09-13T06:56:00.000-07:00

A friend came to visit me yesterday and we break fast together with his and my family plus 3 of our MRSM juniors.It has been long since i last saw him and his wife due to our tight schedules and commitments.Well...i could say that he look the same just that the behaviour was a bit questionable to me.Looking at the wife the cheerfulness that i used to see before was no longer there.My hearts sense that something is wrong somewhere but i didn't ask any of them.

Time passed by and I showed them around the property after breaking fast.Then we stopped at the game room coz the kids wants to spent some times there,of course meaning spending some money there too but told myself to let it be.Let them have fun while the young girls enjoying their Karaoke session with my friend.Asked his wife if she would like to join me for teh tarik at the coffee house and she agreed so there we go.

After sometimes I realised that his wife started to feel uncomfortable which i had never seen her reacted that way in any occasion and then she started to call her husband.When she didn't get any answer she started to grumble and can't recalled how she started to open up to me of her unhappiness and upsets lately.She told me everything and of course i was shocked to hear the story coz i know this old friend of mine very well but looking at her sad face i think i would understand her feelings yesterday and why she was very upsets.Told her to be patient.Although her hubby had been sincere by telling her the truth but no woman in the world would not been hurt if they were in that situation.Now all my curiosities and question were answered.I feel sorry for her coz she's a very nice,pleasant and sincere lady but couldn't run away from getting hurt.

This morning that friend of mine confessed to me of the problems and i advised him accordingly.He admitted that he almost fell in the trap but thanked god that he tend to realised the mistake before it was too late but the wife is already hurt.No wonder the cheerfulness on the face can no longer be seen now.He said that he will tried to mend the broken heart of the wife though it's gonna be a tough job but he will...May he is sincere with his word and succeed to make the wife happy again...

He also told me that a few of our friends had divorced due to various reason and of couse most of it due to the third party. I was shocked,just shooked my head and this phrase came to my mind,"Life begins at 40..." but what happen to the kids,does anyone bother anymore...I don't have the answer but i don't think i'm ready to sacrifice the children's happiness should it happened to me...

Lagu dan dia...

2009-09-06T23:03:00.000-07:00

Hari ni sambil membuat SOP aku mendengar lagu-lagu favourite di you Tube,terjumpa lagu ini yang baru di uploadkan.Terus aku terkenangkan seseorang yang satu ketika dulu cukup baik dan terlalu menyayangi aku.Jauh di sudut hati terasa amat sayu bila teringatkannya kerana ini adalah antara lagu yang sering di nyanyikan dulu padaku sewaktu jalan bersama menghantarku pulang ke hostel.Begitulah cara dia meluahkan isi hati dan harapannya tapi seringkali aku buat endah tak endah namun dia tetap sabar dengan kerenahku dan untuk menungguku.

Silap kecil yang dilakukannya, aku terus memutuskan perhubungan tanpa memikirkan di kala itu apakah implikasi dari keputusanku terhadap dirinya.Cerita sedih yang ku ketahui tentangnya setelah 33 tahun kisah tu berlalu sedikit sebanyak menimbulkan rasa bersalah dan sesalan di hati aku namun segalanya yang terjadi adalah takdir hidup kami.....

Minggu lepas dia menghantar sms bertanyakan khabar.Dia terlalu baik padaku malah sehingga kini sentiasa mengambil berat tentang aku namun aku ???????????
Cuma doaku selalu mengiringi,muga dia dapat melupakan dan berbahagia bersama keluarga tercinta.......

Balik rumah mak kejap....

2009-08-21T07:28:00.000-07:00

Hari ini aku balik rumah mak selepas kerja tapi dah agak lewat lewat.Tak sangka jalanpun punyalah jam pulak malam ni,selalu kalau aku balik ke Kuantan clear aje...Sejak berkerja di Bukit Gambang,aku belum balik lagi kerumah mak kerana terlalu banyak kerja tapi hari ini anak-anak balik dari KL jadi aku terpaksa balik juga sekejap supaya anakku yang bongsu tak merajuk.Hubby tak balik sebab ada class on sunday.Of course mak very happy cucu-cucunya balik berpuasa bersamanya kali ini kebetulan pulak cuti sekolah baru bermula...

Esok pagi-pagi aku harus balik ke resort kerana briefing dgn staff pukul 7.45 pagi tapi sebelum balik ke sana aku harus mengingatkan anak-anak agar tidak menyusahkan atuknya,maklumlah mak dah tua.Kalau terasa nak makan apa apa untuk berbuka baik beli esahaja kerana takut mak kepenatan nak melayan kerenah dia orang berdua.Aku tahu mak pasti menurut aja kemahuan yang dua orang ni,sure punya walaupun dia penat.Di sebabkan aku tak sure dapat berbuka sekali dgn mereka esok baik aku ingatkan dua beradik ni dulu...

Selama kerja di sini aku tak keluarpun,lepas habis kerja terus balik bilik,mandi ,solat ,check mail dan tidur.begitulah routine harianku,tgk tv pun tidak apalagi nak bersembang lama-lama dgn roommateku human resource exec tu.cakap kejap pasal kerja terus minta diri masuk bilik dan berkurung ajelah...Part ni my hubby dah tahu tak payah worried sure bukan kaki merewang...Anyway terlampau banyak kerja sekarang,mmg tak de masa nak merayau-rayaupun.Tapi dalam busy nak gila tu adakalany aku rasa begitu sunyi sekali but what to do.....kawan-kawan rapatpun jauh jadi tahan ajelah...

New place.....

2009-08-09T10:01:00.000-07:00

Arrived about 11.45pm at Bukit Gambang Resort City.Although i was tired still couldn't sleep probably coz it's a new place for me and a change of situation too i guess as i'm totally alone by myself here now that i felt lost for awhile,no hubby to argue with,no kids to smile or shout at,no close friends to talk to but it's ok,i think i'll get use to it soon....Miss them...

The hotel is not open up yet but i was informed by the reception they already have groups checking in.Got my room key and the pleasant young boy showed me to my room.As i entered the room i just smiled faintly looking at the room.Not bad but i guess still lots of fine tuning to be done.i could foresee the tight schedules i'm gonna have ahead at least for another 2 months.Really not an easy job but that's expected when i decided to accept the job offer so no issue....just hope that everthing will go on smoothly as what i've planned......Insyaallah.

Sad but predictable and not shocking....

2009-07-30T05:32:00.000-07:00

We were informed that GM is sacked as of today.I don't know and can't predict what's gonna happen next to the Club which was once well known and established as a prestige from those colonial days.The club is 119 years now but i can see that it's images is going down the drain.Real sad but i'm glad that i've made my decision to leave though many suggested for me to hold on to my decision.

Real difficult working in the club nowadays especially with this group of GC.Though i had a good rapport with almost all every gc but they are fighting among themselves.To date 5 out of 11 gc member had tendered in their resignations so i guess from there people can judge the situation.

I had no problem with my chairman or gm but can't work with my immediate boss cause he envied me too much when chairman and gm listens to me.It's not that i ingratiated them but i'm just being pleasant,rational and straight forward in my work as what my chairman commented about me.But Chairman and GM always can't get along and i had to become the middle person.I'm tired with all this so when the gc decided to retrench my department due to redundancy,i feel relieved.Though i was sad at first thinking that bosses didn't appreciate my work but i realised later that whatever happened could be a blessing in disguise...My chairman and gm wasn't really keen of letting me go (but if the staff has to go ,i have to go too) so they come up with few suggestions such as transfer me to other department etc...to make me stay but i refused and decided to leave.Repeatedly they asked me whether i was serious in leaving the club and i told them yes..i'm firm with my stand and it remains so nothing much they can do...

90% of the people in the club do not believe i'm leaving cause everbody though that i am gm and chairman's blue eye girl,even after i showed them my retrenchment and income tax clearance letter,they still do not believed it whatelse with the big wide smile on my face everyday.They commented that i don't act like a person who's being retrenched.Whatever...said my heart,i guess they would expect me to look gloomy and cry everyday after hearing the news.Hey...come on,life has to go on,crying won't do any good and won't help us...,that's what i told myself.Anyway..i'm thankful to Allah cause he knows what's best for me and had guided me in making the right decision.Two days after receiving the retrenchment letter i received calls for job offers and i'll be working at one of the places very soon.

Tommorrow is my last working day...bye-bye club,sure i'm gonna miss you despite all that had happened.

Goodbye dear members.....

2009-07-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

These last few days i had been telling goodbye to all members whom close to me.Ya....Of course to know that i am leaving the Club in 2 days time inviting many questions but i just told them that it's the committee decision.I am touched with the concern shown by them but i've made my decision and it remains.What r you gonna do? Have you got another job? What about your family?Are you sure you wanna leave? and many many more question being asked.I just smile and told them that i'm fine,prepared and not to worry cause i have a few job offers....

"I'm sure you'll not have any problem to find another job with your good attitude,experience,pleasant character,efficiency and you communicate very well too,infact you have all the excellent qualities with you.It's a real shame and stupid of the Club let go of such a quality staff"..said Mak Ungku and few Dato that i've met.Just told them that i rather reserved my comment."Ya...that's y i said they're damn stupid.Look at how many are trying to grab you from the club when they know you're leaving,you have not even left the club yet,can't they see all this! Retrench the local staff and taking foreigner to works.Do the think that they own the Club? All the GC should be thrown out during the EGM".....said one datuk who was very furious knowing that i'll be leaving soon just now.Told him perhaps the GC has got their own reasons of doing so but it's ok coz i had another job waiting.He just shooked his head.....

He said that he felt sorry for me and requested for me to consider holding back my decision,let them sought out the problem during the EGM.Apologized to him cause i've set my mind to leave.He then wished me luck and said that he believe i would have no problem to survive outside the Club. Thanked him for the concern and support.Turn around and walked away with smile coz i felt funny deep inside,the one who's being retrench is still walking with laughter and genuine smile on the face until many don't seems to believe that she's leaving but others are the one who gets upset and angry....ironic right!Anyway i'm set to leave but still long list of appointments to catch up...

Kenangan itu biarlah berlalu....

2009-07-28T05:18:00.000-07:00

Lagu-lagu nyanyian Broery ini pasti membuatkan aku terkenang kepada seseorang yang sering bersama satu ketika dahulu ,cukup mengemari lagu-lagu ini dan sering menyanyikannya sewaktu dia menemankan aku berjalan pulang ke hostel di hujung minggu, kebetulan jaraknya taklah begitu jauh dari tempat tinggal kami.Memang dia terlalu baik dan tak pernah menyakitkan hati ku namun sesuatu terjadi yang memisahkan kami.Mungkin aku yang terlalu terburu tatkala itu kerana menurut kata hati dan dia hanya menurut permintaanku. Tanpa ku sedari aku sebenarnya telah memusnahkan dan amat mengecewakan hatinya sehingga dia seperti kehilangan arah.Aku hanya mengetahui kesudahan kisah itu setelah bertemua seseorang yang agak rapat dengan keluarga dua tahun lalu menceritakan segalanya selepas perpisahan itu.

Masih aku teringat bagaimana di hari itu juga aku terus menaliponnya bertanya apakah benar segala cerita yang baru ku dengari setelah berpuluh tahun kami terpisah.Terasa sesal yang teramat di hati tatkala dia mengiyakan segalanya apatah lagi pabila teringat yang dia kerap menyatakan sesalan kenapa takdir tidak bersama kami menerusi sms-sms yang di kirimkan namun ku kira segalanya telah berlalu dan harus di lupakan ,tiada apa yang boleh mengembalikan masa lampau.Aku hanya mampu memohon maaf dan biarlah kami kekal sebagai teman sahaja...

Dan setiap kali terdengar lagu lagu ini aku pasti akan teringatkan dia,semuga dia berbahagia dan mampu melupakan semua kisah silam dahulu....

Pergi atau tidak.....

2009-07-27T05:27:00.000-07:00

Pergi? tak pergi? aku tersepit.Rasa nak rehat dulu tapi teman lama amat memerlukan pertolongan.Pabila aku melawat resort tersebut aku mengerti kenapa dia amat memerlukan pertolongan. One thing yang aku suka sangat tengok kesemua department heads nya terdiri dari anak muda yang belumpun mencecah umur 40an.Aku akan menjadi kakak kepada mereka semua jika aku menerima tawaran tersebut.Malah aku juga sempat bertemu ownernya yang juga masih muda,hanya setahun dua lebih tua dariku. For a big resort like that and the management teams is young, it can be a great challenge
but looking at their dedication i believe they will survive....

Ramai members terkejut yang aku akan meninggalkan club dan menyarankan aku membatalkan keputusanku namun aku telah nekad untuk pergi kali ini tetapi jikalau boleh aku nak berehat dulu seketika namun rasanya mungkin tidak tercapai demi teman yang amat memerlukan pertolongan,tak sampai hati rasanya atau aku ni memang terlebih lembut hati seperti selalu.....entahlah. Anyway aku masih ada 2 minggu sebelum tarikh aku perlu berada di sana.....

17 Rules between Men and Women....

2009-07-11T06:31:00.000-07:00

Another interesting email i received yesterday,wonder if it's really true? hah...hah...

1. The Female always makes THE RULES.

2. THE RULES are subject to change without notice.

3. No Male can possibly know all THE RULES.

4. If the Female suspects the Male knows all THE RULES, she must immediately change some or all of THE RULES.

5. The Female is never wrong.

6. If it appears the Female is wrong, it is because of a flagrant misunderstanding caused by something the Male did or said wrong.

7. If Rule #6 applies, the Male must apologize immediately for causing the misunderstanding.

8. The Female can change her mind at any given time.

9. The Male must never change his mind without the express, written consent of The Female.

10. The Female has every right to be angry or upset at any time.

11. The Male must remain calm at all times, unless the Female wants him to be angry or upset.

12. The Female must, under no circumstances, let the Male know whether she wants him to be angry or upset.

13. The Male is expected to read the mind of the Female at all times.

14. At all times, what is important is what the Female meant, not what she said.

15. If the Male doesn't abide by THE RULES, it is because he can't take the heat, lacks ackbone, and is a wimp.

16. Any attempt to document THE RULES could result in bodily harm.

17. If the Male, at any time, believes he is right, he must refer to Rule #5

Men...can we really rely on them?

2009-07-10T07:51:00.000-07:00

Hubby supposed to be back from Tioman today.At noon he called asking me to take leave.Sounds so sure,i asked why he said jom balik kampung this weekend.Reluctant at first coz i don't like to apply leave at last moment but since i'm leaving soon i agreed with his plan furthermore it has been months since i last went back to my hometown.Don't have to buy food for the kid coz i'll take them out for dinner,he added,again sounds so sure although I was still in doubt if can i take his words anyway it's still ok coz i've left some money with my son for contegency.

Apllied leave and told GM I'll complete the survey analysis before i leave today.Completed my survey and attended the meeting after performing my solat.That A** H**e as what GM called him again drive the committee nuts.No matter how much negative comments being said,he doesn't seems to change and always do the opposite of what being asked.Just shooked my head when people asked A ,he goes round the bush before answering P till the committee members got so fed up and cut short or goes to other matters instead of listening to his rubbish explanations.i feel very ashamed. He makes management looks foolish in the eyes of the committee.Just imagine in one of his tabulation,he stated a water meter was fix at diesel tank????.i got to explained what he meant by that...he really confused everyone in the room...real annoying!

Suddenly my phone vibrated indicating call coming in.Saw on the screen,hubby trying to call.Couldn't answer in the meeting then a message came saying that his flight is cancelled.Gosh..straight away my mind thaught of the kids.They'll will be starving at home.Quickly i text my son to buy some food before his sister arrived from school.thanked god i've left some money with him.

Meeting finished almost 7pm,called hubby and scolded him for messing up all my plans especially the part where he promised to take the kids for dinner and leave that i had applied.He apologized and said it's unintentionally.Told him not to make plans if things are still unsure in future...Wonder what happened if didn't spare some money at home,the kids would be starving while waiting for me to arrived home.i really hate this kind of incident...it makes me worried.

Dia masih di situ...

2009-07-08T07:18:00.000-07:00

Lagu betharia sonata berkumandang dari handphoneku menandakan ada kiriman message dari seseorang.Aku yang hampir terlelap tersedar kembali.Aku menatap nombor dan message yang tertera,"Will be at the Club friday evening,please wait..."

Aku tersenyum tawar sendirian,masih lagi...kata hatiku.Aku teringat kali terakhir bertemunya secara tak sengaja di Midvalley lebih kurang 3 bulan lepas.Aku ingatkan dah di lupakan rupanya harapannya tak pernah pudar....Gusar juga hatiku kerana memang aku terpaksa berada di Club sehingga lewat petang jumaat nanti kerana ada monthly meeting.Bagaimana harus aku elakkan dari bertemunya lagi.Rasa macam nak ambil mc aje tapi sure chairman dan gm akan bengang kerana itu adalah meeting terakhir bagi aku sebelum aku berhenti...

Tiba-tiba aku teringat yang aku akan meninggalkan club tak lama lagi lalu tersenyum sendirian .maknanya dia takkan dapat mencari aku di club lagi selepas itu,nasiblah kalau aku terserempak nanti dengan dia pada hari jumaat tapi aku akan cuba sedaya upaya mengelakkannya.Dan jika aku membuat keputusan untuk balik ke kuantan pasti dia takkan dapat menemui aku lagi bukan apa biarlah kisah lama itu berlalu pergi agar tiada yang terluka...

Lucu tapi ada betulnya...

2009-07-04T03:29:00.000-07:00

An email received which i would like to share with all....

How to make woman happy

It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be:

1. a friend
2. a companion
3. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber
11. a mechanic
12. a decorator
13. a stylist
14. a phsiotherapist
15. a gynaecologist
16. a psychologist
17. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organizer
22. a good father
23. very clean
24.. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34. understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38. capable
39. courageous
40. determined
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate
44. compassionate**
**
**WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:**

**45. give her compliments regularly
46. love shopping
47. be honest
48. be very rich
49. not stress her out
50. not look at other girls**

*AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:**

**51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes**

**IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:**

**54. Never to forget:
* birthdays
* anniversaries
* arrangements she makes*

* HOW TO MAKE MEN'S HAPPY

*One** Small Smile*

Ha..ha..ha..macam perli perempuan aje....

Unexpected...how do i advise.....

2009-06-29T17:37:00.000-07:00

Seorang sahabat meminta pandangan aku tentang dilema yang di hadapinya kini.Well to cut the story short...a secret admirer from her old days approached her lately but it can be considered as forbidden affair and she requested for my opinion out of all other friends.i was kind of startled at first and at the verge of saying no...don't ever get yourself entangle to this kind of problem but something stop me when i look at her smilin face,different from before.Actually,I've gone thru this before and it really hurts bad when things doesn't happen as what you expected....

But that day,looking at the shine of her face and smile when she told me about it, i knew that she has begun to start having feelings for the guy.Good in a way that she's moving on in life and is no longer so captured in the memories of her late husband but the guy is the problem, a married man with 4 grown up girls. No doubt he might be able to support everyone with his career now but can he get the consent from the wife for his second marriage.And this friend of mine is not of the strong character that i feel confident she could handle problems should she has face it later.She's too soft and fragile as what i can see...

Asked her if she is really ready for all this,how is her real feeling towards the guys. She wasn't sure but i can see from the bright smile on the face when she talked about him makes me feels she likes him too...i asked her again ,doesn't she think that it's too early to make the decision of getting married again when they guy just came back in her life (about 2/3 months ago)although the guy keeps on pastering her about this....also asked her doesn't she wants to get to know him better first since it has been long since they parted and times do changed people...

i can see that she's confused as she looked at me when i asked her that all that questions but i can also see that she likes him.Could be because she lonely without children and friends around that she tend appreciates the concern shown by this guy.i happy for her if she can really face all the concequences later coz i want see her happy but my heart and my instinct is telling me that she will have problems....

i suggested for her to get the guy to be sincere and get the consent from the wife first but she told me the guy is suggesting the other way round.i was asking in my heart if he's really capable and sincere why must they go to the other way round.perhaps he has his own reason for it...i was just about to give my two cents worth of opinion when other friends arrived so i told her we'll talked again later about it coz i know she doesn't want other to know yet...

now i'm thinking,what kind of advise should i give her.although i've gone thru all this before but her scenario and mine are different.i'm not as lonely as she is which is also a factor i have to consider when i talked to her later.yes i've also experienced when old flames sparks back but i'm strong in holding my life principles whereas she just don't have that strong character,lonely and really needs companion as what i can see now therefore i don't think she can't avoid it if it is meant to happen but it's gonna hurts many many hearts around,even hers too if she's not careful in handling it...

i just ask her to give a deep thought about it first,do not commit anything until we talk again meanwhile get to know the guy more and learn his character and most important whether both of them can get along well....

May i don't give her the wrong advise coz this kind of matter really involved many-many hearts around not only two hearts who are in love....

Even now...the pain of moving on....

2009-06-27T17:13:00.000-07:00

Nice video clip......

Teh tarik session..

2009-06-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

Meeting salwana tomorrow.wonder what she wants to ask me perhap about her new job.she only want to ask for my opinion. Then we gonna meet the rest.Zul call just now to confirm the time and knowing zul i bet many more will join in tomorrow.just let it be.it's been long since all of us meet other...

Free now....

2009-06-22T14:41:00.000-07:00

I'm happy...yesterday my chairman told me that i can go together with my staff who were retrench due to redundancy in the position due to outsourcing exercise to down size the operation cost.Just feel sad for the staff coz it's gonna be difficult for them to find new job nowadays.By right,the Club is not that desperate till they have to retranged the staff but the president this year is mad and have no merci for staff at all i could say.

Anyway i have my own reasons why i'm happy to go and most i important i won't let people to make use of my expertise for their own agenda.Chairman and especially Gm was very confused to see my reaction.Gm even scolded me for asking to leave early i should only be going at the end of October but i managed to persuade chairman to release me together with my staff next month. On top of that she has top up another 10K for my retrenchment benefits. Why she did that i don't know....i didn't ask for it.yesterday my gm's secrectary told me that gm had several times earlier asked her if she should redeployed me to admin manager position and a few other suggestions just to make me stay.This naughty secretary likes to annoyed her by telling her to not even think of it coz i've made up my mind and that i've plans on my own after this....indeed i do have plans already.

Again yesterday evening GM called me before i went back home to asked if chairman did talk to me again.i said yes but she just asked me how i do liked my new job that is to replace the admin manager who is on long mc.told her that it's ok with me and i like to learn just that i can't stand dealing with one ridiculous and annoying department which happened to be my direct boss. hah..ha...Anyway i feel stranged why did she asked,then followed by GM reaction when she asked me that question.Anyway i told her not to worry just let me go first ,should they face problems later on .i'm always contactable.just want to relax for awhile....Then she received a phone call so i took the opportunity to go off.

As i came out her secretary told me that she feels that they will call me back later coz she said that gm is not confident someone could replace my work.i just smile and told her to let it be....they'll get use to it.At the moment i'm just happy to go so let me go first....Actually i was offered a few things from chairman and gm prior to my decision,taking over the contract cleaninglah, taking up a hawker's stalllah,replacing this person,that person etc just to have my presence in the club but i've made up my mind to go.Just asked GM one question,if really don't want me to go why do they come out with all this ideas in the first place! she said it was not her who initiated and i said too bad......

now i'm counting my days......

Selamat Hari Bapa dan kenangan ayah ....

2009-06-20T19:39:00.000-07:00

Hari ini Hari Bapa tapi ayah dah pergi seusia anak sulungku.Aku rasa sedih bila teringatkan yang aku tak sempat banyak membalas jasa ayah selama membesarkan kami.Walaupun ayah sangat garang dan tegas namun ayah banyak berkorban bukan saja untuk kami anak-anaknya malah ayah juga menolong menyara anak-anak saudaranya yang tinggal bersama kami sekeluarga semasa mereka datang belajar ke bandar dari kampung dahulu.Bukan seorang tapi ramai namun ayah tak pernah merungut.

Dengan gaji hanya sebagai seorang anggota polis ayah menyara kami semua malah satu ketika turut menyara pak long yang lumpuh separuh badan selama beberapa tahun sebelum dia meninggal dunia kerana pak long tak mempunyai keluarga sendiri.Aku kagum dengan ketabahan ayah dan berjanji pada diriku sendiri yang satu hari aku akan menyenangkan ayah pulak malangnya ayah dah pergi dahulu sebelum aku menjawat jawatan tinggi dalam kerjaya aku.Ayah pergi buat selamanya semasa aku masih menapak membina kareer di dalam hidupku.Mungkin bukan rezekinya untuk sempat aku membalas segala jasa dan pengorbanannya selama ini.

Aku masih ingat bagaimana ayah berjanji jika aku mendapat nombor 1-3 dalam peperiksaan ,ayah akan membelikan aku hadiah malangnya ayah tak mampu menunaikan janjinya tatkala itu kerana terpaksa menanggung keluarga yang besar.Entah kenapa aku tak menagih hadiah dari ayah tatkala itu seolah aku faham tanggungjawab ayah yang berat namun satu hari sewaktu aku di mrsm ayah datang ke hostel dan memakaikan seutas rantai yang baru di beli ke leherku.Aku cukup terharu kerana ayah tak pernah lupa janji rupanya walaupun setelah sekian lama baru dapat di tunaikan...Mungkin ayah baru mendapat rezeki lebih di waktu itu lantas dia terus menunaikan janjinya...Terima kasih ayah.

Ayah juga memanggilku dengan panggilan yang lain dari ahli keluargaku yang lain.Mungkin ayah tak suka dengan nama timanganku di rumah yang kecinaan sedikit (kerana katanya aku sebijik seperti anak cina di waktu kecil)jadi ayah seorang memanggil aku dengan panggilan "Diah".Aku dulu pendiam berbanding adik beradikku yang lain tetapi paling nakal dan berani dalam mengacau ketenteraman ayah berehat di rumah.Selepas ayah pencen setiap hari selepas makan tengahhari dan solat zuhur ayah akan berbaring di hadapan pintu depan rumah sambil mendengar lagu nasyid seperti di you tube atas ataupun lagu-lagu klasik P.Ramlee,momok latif,r.azmi dan lain-lain sebelum terlena kejap sementara menunggu solat Asar. Aku yang dalam zaman saturday nite fever dan grease ,masa tu manalah tahan nak mendengar lagu mengantuk di waktu begitu,dahlah ayah tak bagi keluar....huh...tension sesangat!

Aku akan selalu mengintai samada ayah dah terpejam mata atau belum.Asal nampak mata ayah tertutup aje aku akan menukarkan ke lagu grease ke,bee gees ke,scorpion ke dan pasang sekuat-kuat tidak berdendang.Selalu aku di jerit balik,"Diah...kenapa di pasang lagu setan tu? Heii...budak nii..." Macam dia tau-tau kerja aku lalu aku terpaksa menukar balik lagu kegemaran dia sambil mengomel panjang."Ayah ni...mengantuklah dengar lagu macam tu..." "Dah,pegi dapur tolong mak,terpekik-pekik macam orang gila!" arahan ayah selalunya maka terpaksalah aku mengikut..

Aaahh...kenangan dengan ayah yang tak akan aku lupakan.Mendengar lagu-lagu di you tube ini sering mengingatkan betapa berani dan nakalnya aku menyakat ayah dulu.Tak de adik-adik beradik lain yang berani menganggu ayah begitu.jahat betul aku ni dalam sikap pendiam aku tu.Anyway aku sentiasa mendoakan agar roh ayah sentiasa di cucuri rahmat,diampunkan segala dosanya,di lapangkan ayah di dalam kubur dan di jauhi dari segala seksaan.Moga ayah di tempatkan bersama golongan orang-orang yang beriman di sisi Allah SWT..Insyaallah....Al fatihah.

Aku amat merinduimu ayah...

Aku ,demam dan ubat...

2009-06-17T03:23:00.000-07:00

Tiga malam berturut aku demam malam. selalunya aku tetap juga pergi kerja tapi hari ni aku tak larat kerana pagi tadi kepala pusing balik dan terasa bisa-bisa badan. Aku sms Gm dan Mr Ong nak ambil EL. Pergi klinik doktor bagi mc tapi sesuatu membimbangkan aku bila doktor suruh buat blood test takut denggi. Tapi aku tetap tak nak,tak rela aku nak kena suntik....takut, nasib aku dah makan ubat demam dulu pagi-pagi jadi by the time aku kat klinik demam dah kurang.

Aku kata aku cuma rasa seram sejuk and tak dapat tidur dan hilang selera nak makan aje,tak depu tanda-tanda lain bintik=bintik ke apa ke,jadi tak payahlah suntik aku.tak sanggup.....Memanglah sekarang nyamuk ada tapi nampak seekor nyamuk aje habis ridsect aku spray satu rumah so aku rasa nyamukpun takut except seokor dua yang degil tu.Doktor kata ok tapi kalu bertertusan kena datang balik. aku yekan jelah tapi belum tentu aku datangpun melainkan kalau sakit teruk sangat.

Ctm pulak masa aku call nak tanya something bagi aku khutbah pagi rabulah pasal degil,penakut ubat and macam-macamlah.aku buat pekak telinga aje.Sakit aku makanlah ubat kalau dah baik aku campak ajelah jauh-jauh.Aku bukan jenis suka telan ubat.Doktorpun samapai dah tahu adan sekarang tiap kali aku pergi dia tanya dulu ubat lama ada lagi tak,kalau masih ada dia suruh makan yang lama tu,bukan apa dia kata membazir duit aku aje bayar tapi aku buang so now dengan cara ni dia buat aku simpan ubat yang lebih dan duit aku pun jimat sikit....hah...haha... ada juga manusia pelik macam aku ni.

Apa-apa halpun esok akau kena pegi jugak kerja pasal ada meeting pagi and ada satu kerja penting aku nak kena siapkan,semuaga kepala aku tak pusing lagi esok...

Demam lagi......

2009-06-15T14:41:00.000-07:00

Entah kenapa tiba-tiba aku rasa nak demam malam tadi sedangkan aku cukup ok semalam sehingga habis meeting malam tadi malah sampai ke rumahpun aku masih ok.Hanya setelah lewat malam aku mula terasa bisa-bisa badan dan tak selesa berterusan hingga ke pagi ini.Memang rasa tak sedap badan betul sehingga aku terbangun jam tiga pagi dan tak boleh tidur lagi.Rasa macam tak nak kerja aje hari ni tapi aku di beri tugas baru seminggu dua ini(kalau bernasib baik,mungkin lagi lama) untuk menggantikan rakan ku yang bercuti sakit hampir dua minggu mulai dari semalam.Entah betul dia sakit ke tidak masih menjadi tanda tanya kerna sikap sambil lewanya membuatkan tak de orang mempercayai.Hanya dapat di sahkan pabila dia kembali bekerja nanti dan membawa mc chit itu.Tak pasal-pasal aku menjadi mangsa untuk menghabiskan kerja tertunggak dia kerana buat masa ni antara semua kerja aku yang paling banyak dah complete dan aku tahu nak buat kerja dia tu.Tak guna betul,tak pasal pasal bertambah kerja aku...bukan sikit pulak kerja tertunggak dia tu.

Angin aku kejap....

2009-06-09T08:16:00.000-07:00

Aku bengang betul kejap dengan GM tadi,ada ke dia kat aku bohong,pandai-pandai sendiri call the second contractor for final discussion tentang tender kerja pembersihan hanya kerana aku terang terang menunjukkan reaksi tak menyukai kontraktor pertama yang di panggil untuk berbincang pagi tadi.Yang aku tak faham kenapa baghal sangat kita ni nak tunduk pada demand bukan-bukan dia sedangkan kita yang nak ambil dia bekerja.Macam mak bapak dia punya company pula nak hold we all at ransom macam tu dan aku tak faham chairman dan gm macam nak mengikut aje.Dahlah apa yang di persetujui dalam sessi temuduga dengan apa yang di cakap hari ini berlainan.

Aku tanya chairman,"Are we obligated to take his company? Let me tell u i can foresee lots of problems will arise.My instinct is strongly telling me that.No respect for the chairperson at all and so defensive for nothing.Anyway the decision is yours! Terus aje aku keluar dari bilik itu selepas memberi opinion aku mengenainya.

Tak lama lepas tu chairman call,'call the other contractor to come'.So i did and informed gm.Aku pulak di katakan memandai dan berbohong yang chairman menyuruh aku berbuat demikian.Hah..apalagi angin lah aku.Dengan nada yang agak tinggi sampai jari aku menunjukkan kepada telefon and tell her off," u pick up that thing and dial her number now to know whether i'm lying or not.i don't simply act on my own and i know my level of authority!"Aku perasan wajah terkejut dia mungkin tak menyangka yang aku akan naik angin.Kot yepun janganlah simply-simply nak tuduh orang walaupun kita ni ada kuasa lebih.

Aku berpaling nak keluar dari office dia bila aku terdengar suara dia berkata,"What i mean is,what different does it make,the other contractor's price is also high." Sambil membuka pintu aku sempat juga menjawab,"That one i don't know.u talk to her.' Satu penyakit dua orang boss perempuan aku ni,tak ngam antara satu sama lain,kalau boleh tak nak bercakap sesama sendiri and aku selalu tersepit antara dia orang berdua pasal dua dua akan cari aku.Aku dah tiba tahap bosan ,so settlelah sendiri problem dia orang.Tak larat nak layan dah....

Anyway 2nd contractor turn out to be more accomodative,respectful and negotiable . Chairman seems to be confident and happy with the discussionso decided to recommend the company.Gm did not attend the second discussion coz she was engaged in another meeting so i informed her later of the outcome.Before she can asked me further i told her to talk to the chairman should she has any doubt on the matter.I [penat nak layan pertelagahan dia orang.

Good to be back home...

2009-06-07T03:43:00.000-07:00

Happy to be back home again though pretty lonely without the kids.Hubby went out so spent my time watching movie one after another.Don't even want to go out for dinner coz i'm still full.Had been eating rice whole week thru so i guess high time to skip rice from my meal list this week.Anyway tomorrow i'll start work again and my hectic schedule will repeat,can't complaint i guess....

Feeling lazy....

2009-06-05T21:04:00.000-07:00

Everybody has gone to Jugra for team building session,hubby asked again if i want to follow.No thanks,would rather stay at home and continue with my sleep.Ha..ha...actually can't sleep anymore.Washed the dirty clothes and just laid lazily on bed again,don't know what to do.Want to walk at the beach,the weather is too hot.So dedided to watch movie on the you tube again.Hubby asked to do his assignment,no mood to look at it at all,even too lazy to go out to buy lunch.i guess i'll just eat whatever left in the fridge.

Tomorrow gonna go back to KL and start work again on monday.God knows what's waiting for me there after a week on leave.Aaah..let it be,after all i've lost my interest to continue working there...Just want to relax for awhile if i may....